[I started this post draft in 2010 I suppose. I'm going to post it half-answered, in an attempt to revisit someday and measure my progress. The answers in italics are from EOY 2010 and after reviewing them this NYE 2012, nothing has changed.]
1. What questions should I be asking myself?
Questions that help me understand if I am happy with who I am and how I got here. Questions that force me to answer how I feel about my life in this moment, so that I can reflect on them in the future and see progress, regress, success, and contentment.
2. Is this what I want to be doing?
Honestly I can't imagine myself doing anything else. I am not a performer, so I don't long to be on a stage. I can't remember meeting anyone recently where they explained their job or what they do, and I thought to myself, "Wow! That sounds amazing, I could totally see myself doing that." Perhaps I thought instead, "Now that sounds 'interesting'" and almost always I thought, "That sounds good for him/her, but it is not for me."
3. Why worry?
I worry about love and offspring (or lack there of), but not about where my life is headed. I probably should worry more about my mother and my brother and family in general, but I don't. Worry is not a frequent word in my vocabulary, unless I am in a relationship where there are feelings of doubt (which is common) and I worry my feelings aren't being reciprocated. Until I can learn to read minds, I will most likely always worry about this. Occasionally, I worry about the way I look, but for the most part I am confident in my own skin.
4. Why do I like {cupcakes} more than I like {people}?
5. How do I want the world to be different because I lived in it?
A good friend told me once, that if I like someone there is never any doubt. I share how I feel openly and I show it too. My friends know they are loved and I want the world to be a different place because I brought friends together. Another friend told me I am a connector. Funny enough, I connected these two friends and they are in a healthy, happy, and loving relationship, so they are both probably biased. But do I want to invite the cure for cancer or even a new swim stroke to be approved for the US Federation of Swimming? No, probably not. I am not a big achiever, I am small achiever and just hope the world remembers me by pushing up fragrant flowers from the earth where my ashes are spread instead of kudzu or stink-weed.
6. How do I want to be different because I lived in this world?
7. Are {vegans} better people?
8. What is my body telling me?
9. How much junk could a chic chick chuck if a chic chick could chuck junk?
10. What's so funny?
11. Where am I wrong?
12. What potential memories am I bartering, and is the profit worth the price?
13. Am I the only one struggling not to {fart} during {yoga}?
14. What do I love to practice?
15. Where could I work less and achieve more?
16. How can I keep myself absolutely safe?
17. Where should I break the rules?
18. So say I lived in that fabulous house in Tuscany, with untold wealth, a gorgeous, adoring mate, and a full staff of servants...then what?
19. Are my thoughts hurting or healing?
20. Really truly: Is this what I want to be doing?
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